A New Beginning

Life is full of ups and downs. And I never knew I would be the one to get hit that hard.

But I did.

Life hit me hard – right in the chest, where it hurts the most.

I was sailing with my little boat on those not very calm waters, and I found myself between two little islands. Two lovely islands, both of them, with promising future ahead of them. Both of them unconditionally welcoming me on board.

Both of them smiling at me through the sunset reflection in the sea.

When sunset comes, I knew those islands were different.

One was warm and loving, fields full of calmness and wisdom. One was tough and rough, with deep blue lakes full of troubles.

One made me feel settled. The other one made me feel alive.

I was so close to the first island. I could almost see the comfort from my boat. I could see the welcoming branches from the trees waving at me. It was nice to know someone wants me there.

But when I looked on the other side, I saw the deep lakes on the other island, and I knew how dangerous they were. But yet, something about that danger pulled me towards it. I didn’t know whether it would be worth it, but I decided I’ll turn around and see what this island has to offer me.

I turned the boat around, and as soon as I did it, a huge storm hit me and my boat.

My boat snapped, and I was alone in the cold waters, swimming on my own towards the new island full of troubles. I was left to cope with my troubles alone, on my own, in the deep sea waters.

After an eternity, I finally made it! I was there, on the island. I wasn’t welcomed like I would expect, but I had a shelter – a little house made from branches.

The island had troubles of its own, coping with his own demons, leaving me and my sadness alone. Never trying to help me – thinking I could help myself.

At this point, I lost everything I’ve ever had, everything I’ve ever loved, and I found a shelter. I even found warmth in the coldness of this little troubled island.

But the island was right – I did help myself. Not knowingly – yet I did. I started building a new boat – bigger, and gaining resources in order to survive. I did all of that.

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After a while – the island started showing me its hidden mysteries. I discovered places and caves about this island that I never knew existed. He showed me even those deep lakes, that I was so afraid to touch. But there I was, witnessing the warmth of this island, even though he’ll never admit it happened.

The island would whisper to me the most sad stories of its existence, how people lived here, and he lost them. How pirates would come and steal what he’s got. How he’d even throw away the person that stayed on his island for a while, just so he would have the capability to provide a shelter for me to live on this island now.

Thinking I’d only find trouble, but wanting to see what those deep lakes hide within themselves, I have found an island that can shelter me, warm me, help me survive, without him even knowing it.

Leaving behind an island that promised me all the comfort and support, I have found an island that would care and love me without even wanting or trying to.

I still miss my old boat though, I never wanted for it to crash. But sometimes, we break thing without meaning to. And sometimes, when we follow our heart and find special islands, there will be nobody to tell us they’re proud of us. But deep inside, I know they are.

 

 

 

 

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28 thoughts on “A New Beginning

  1. The Thrifty Campers September 11, 2017 / 6:20 pm

    A fresh start is sometimes needed. It’s never a bad thing to step outside of your comforst zone and seek true happiness.

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  2. Nata September 19, 2017 / 9:03 am

    Beautifuuuuuuuuuulllll!!!!!

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    • innahlovesyou September 20, 2017 / 8:27 am

      I am glad you like my words! Everything comes straight from the soul xxx

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  3. biscuitfeatures September 22, 2017 / 12:17 pm

    What a bittersweet story! You tell it so beautifully…. my heart is sighing wistfully in response.

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  4. themelondeal September 22, 2017 / 1:09 pm

    Touching post! Very impressive to read!
    Have a great weekend

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  5. psiberite September 26, 2017 / 10:11 am

    The figurative language you have used to portray your autobiography is very poignant. Anand Bose from Kerala

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  6. doubledacres September 27, 2017 / 2:52 pm

    Brilliant! Magnificent and well thought out. You should be proud of your work. As we travel down the highway of life we never seem to think about what it will be like to start over but in our minds we just know we will never have to look it in the eye. Then it happens. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

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    • innahlovesyou September 27, 2017 / 2:59 pm

      Thank you for commenting! I am very glad that my thoughts have touched you.

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  7. ishootnikon September 27, 2017 / 3:43 pm

    A new start is often terrifying and you’re out of your comfort zone. This is where it usually gets the most beneficial I developing yourself and growing in character.

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    • innahlovesyou September 27, 2017 / 3:44 pm

      I absolutely agree with that! Only when you are pushed in a corner, under pressure, you realise your true fears and your true strengths. Only then you really grow up – and quite fast as well! 🙂

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  8. DragonWriter7 October 28, 2017 / 10:07 pm

    Nice touch. By the way, you are not a weird girl. Just a gifted one trying overcome yourself. There is no scripts ready to follow this path called life. I wish you good fortune.

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    • innahlovesyou October 28, 2017 / 10:27 pm

      I completely agree! Thank you for taking the time to read my posts! 🙂

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  9. Mark Lanesbury February 3, 2018 / 10:14 pm

    We get to see and feel that pain, so that when that love finally arrives in our hearts, we appreciate what we have had to endure to reach that beautiful place 😀
    Well written young lady, your path will have many trials and tribulations, but the beauty that it will find will be beyond your imagination…plus, it gives great stories to write 😀

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  10. shoniessky February 13, 2018 / 6:48 pm

    This is a beautiful read. So true that many can relate! This is what helps others!!

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    • innah96 February 13, 2018 / 6:51 pm

      Thank you very much! It is written form personal experience, as everything in this blog 🙂 I am glad you like it!

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  11. Eliza March 28, 2018 / 3:06 pm

    Wow. This brings me to tears.
    You’ve put into words what I never could.
    There is always hope. Even whilst being pulled under the waves. Just hard to remember at times.
    Happy exploring!

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